The best thing about running your own business is that you get to make the rules. I'm glad you listened to your inner self and took the leap -- things are meant to evolve in business and the more unique and in alignment they are, the better. Excited for Rowan Made 2.0!
So good to hear your process!! And I think it feels so totally aligned with the journey of matrescence too. Motherhood radically highlights all areas of misalignment for sure! I had a similar experience with my first daughter but with Human Design and not astrology. Now I weave that in and it’s brought a whole new dimension that lights me up so much! Celebrating your leaps and thank you for sharing xxx
Going into motherhood, I expected all of the physical changes. Sleep, routines, body, etc. It was the inner stuff that I didn't consider TOO much. I was already on a healing path, so I assumed it wouldn't hit me as much. Wow, was I wrong. Every single thing has changed, big and small. It's wild. I love that you've integrated HD into your work. Is this with coaching or design or both? I'm assuming you've found it helpful in parenting, too? I know some about HD and have found it really helpful with my kiddo so far. :)
So much this! I had done what I thought was a lot of inner work before having babies but I still was floored by the shift! It’s wild! Yes I kind of weave it into everything, so looking at it from their brand point of view, looking at it personally and how maybe they can connect with others and make business decisions from their uniqueness… and yes it’s been incredibly helping parenting as well, and just knowing what I need as a Mother to feel the most energised… even on very little sleep!! 🤪 xx
I FEEL this. For me, motherhood has forced me to really focus and prioritize and with so much less time for myself there’s much more significance to what I spend that precious time on and the pull to approach work in a way that feels more aligned. I’m also so drawn to human design (emotional projector mama with a generator son and man gen daughter), but have yet to figure out how to integrate it into my business. But the desire and spark is there and I’m riding my wave on it and waiting for clarity. So we’ll see where it goes! ✨
Oh I love that you have found that refinement… it truly strips everything away that is not essential and forces that clarity I think. Not an easy journey but a gift for sure! Woah lots of energy for you to keep up with… I’m an MG with two daughters, a Manifestor and Projector. They teach me a lot about pace!!!! The application in business takes a little experimentation but then things start to land it can be utterly transformative! Xx
Couldn’t agree more. Motherhood is definitely the most challenging difficult rewarding and transformative thing I’ve ever done. The me before my kiddos were born feels like another person entirely, but it’s nice to sometimes discover pieces of her are still in there. And yes! My son and husband are both sacral generators and my daughter and I have emotional authority (she’s got 2 waves) so there is a LOT of energy and feelings in our home and it definitely can be a lot to keep up with. I can imagine manifestor and projector kiddos needing to pace themselves, and I find raising kiddos with different types than mine both challenging and fascinating. It’s so beautiful when HD helps me unlock something for my kiddos to help them find their flow. My son is so into making sacral sounds and it’s fun to watch my MG daughter bounce from activity to activity all day (though trying to set the expectation I can’t always keep up with them).
Good for you for figuring out how to integrate it into your business. I’m curious. Did you go through an HD reader training?
Agreed… most brutal and beautiful experience of my life so far!!!
Yes I’ve done a few trainings, level 1 & 2 with Jenna Zoe and then a deep dive one with Kyla from Hatha Astro. It really is in the readings with others though that I’ve learned the most about applying it. I feel like I’ve only just scratched the surface but I think it’s one of those things that I will forever be integrating and learning. Xx
Same here! And thank you for sharing. I imagine doing a reader training sometime in the future and am so excited to keep digging deeper and integrating the knowledge. In the meantime, it’s an endless exercise to apply it for myself and learn more about the designs in my family
Loved reading this so much. I felt a lot of similar things in 2022 and 2023 and it’s always encouraging to be reminded that I’m not alone. So grateful that you’re loving the direction you’re headed in. Happy belated Mother’s Day!
Thank you Lydia. :) Are you still in Iceland? How's it going? I haven't been on instagram much, but remember seeing that you were there. My family was on a hike earlier this week because my toddler likes walking through the woods and I randomly thought about how cool it would be to see him walk on the various Icelandic landscapes. I haven't been there for what feels like so many years!
I feel this deeply. Feeling pulled to change but not knowing exactly how to do it. Or you do know how to, but it feels so foreign your body can’t help but perceive it as “unsafe.” I’ve been enjoying seeing the integration with astrology in your work. I myself have been slow drip learning astrology for years now and somehow it always surprises me and feels exactly right at the same time.
YES. That perception of change feeling unsafe is so challenging for me. The last year has been the slowest and deepest transition within my business and it honestly still feels really scary. Wishing you all the best as you navigate the unknown as well. AND YAY for more people getting into astrology. My learning experience so far has been a slow trip turned into full on school, ha. I love it. :)
I’m so with you on this, riding my own wave of business vs. mamahood as you know and trying to find my own identity in the mix when there seems to be so little time for me. Daycare also hasn’t felt right for our family to this point, but also I fantasize even having 1 more day a week with time and space to focus on my own work. But at the same time, I have 1 year left until Iris is in school and then these days are gone, so I’m continuing to ride my wave through the fog and uncertainty. Not sure where it’s going, but it’s so nice to know I’m not alone and to see like-minded friends finding their own aligned way forward reminding me I can do the same. Thank you for sharing, love. ♥️
I love you and see you and hear you, always. :) If it doesn't feel right for Iris to be in childcare yet, there's probably a reason. I'm literally so excited to see how you evolve from here in perfect time! Here's me being astro nerdy as always, but you have so much transformational 8th house deep energy, the next phase is bound to happen simply because you are so open to it.
I love you and see you right back always, friend. Thank you for every nugget of astro nerdiness, since it definitely helps me feel a bit less like I’m fumbling in the fog through these years. I just listened to the HD reading I had 4+ years ago and they pointed out in true projector fashion that it would be so aligned for my work and value to spring from what I see instead of what I can do. Not sure what that will mean for design, and maybe it involves HD and homeopathy in some way but the idea of my job being less centered on heads down work time is an interesting one. I also have the gate of community so there’s gotta be something there and we’ll see how it all plays out! Definitely open to whatever unfolds but also wishing I had more of an idea of where it’s all leading. And so we surrender again and again and again 🤷🏼♀️✨🙏🏼
I’ve been struggling with a similar feeling for about a year, with inkling of not feeling ok about my work as a brand designer for a way longer now. It got to a point where being a freelance didn’t feel aligned anymore and I got a job in a company again.
I’m starting to circle around what looks like the beginning of something that excites me again, but it was a process of getting excited 80 or more times by tiny epiphanies, and I’m wondering if I should dive in it head first like I did the 80 first times.
Reading your story gave me hope and inspiration. Again thank you so much for sharing.
Celebrating you getting a job again because freelance didn't feel good. I'm sure there was a lot of grief (and relief?) that came with that. Also! Excited to hear more about where these tiny epiphanies take you. :) I'm similar, where I get inklings of change that creep up, before I even truly know where I'm going. It's like I'm standing on a stone in a river and can only see the next stone. One step at a time until you look back and see how far you've come. <3
Love this story & applaud your courageous choice. The future of business deeply understands & caters to the *individual*. You’re on the forefront of a movement. Congrats for taking the leap! 👏🏽👏🏽
"The future of business deeply understands & caters to the individual." YES YES YES. I know this deep down AND it was a good reminder to see this morning — thank you.
The best thing about running your own business is that you get to make the rules. I'm glad you listened to your inner self and took the leap -- things are meant to evolve in business and the more unique and in alignment they are, the better. Excited for Rowan Made 2.0!
So good to hear your process!! And I think it feels so totally aligned with the journey of matrescence too. Motherhood radically highlights all areas of misalignment for sure! I had a similar experience with my first daughter but with Human Design and not astrology. Now I weave that in and it’s brought a whole new dimension that lights me up so much! Celebrating your leaps and thank you for sharing xxx
Going into motherhood, I expected all of the physical changes. Sleep, routines, body, etc. It was the inner stuff that I didn't consider TOO much. I was already on a healing path, so I assumed it wouldn't hit me as much. Wow, was I wrong. Every single thing has changed, big and small. It's wild. I love that you've integrated HD into your work. Is this with coaching or design or both? I'm assuming you've found it helpful in parenting, too? I know some about HD and have found it really helpful with my kiddo so far. :)
So much this! I had done what I thought was a lot of inner work before having babies but I still was floored by the shift! It’s wild! Yes I kind of weave it into everything, so looking at it from their brand point of view, looking at it personally and how maybe they can connect with others and make business decisions from their uniqueness… and yes it’s been incredibly helping parenting as well, and just knowing what I need as a Mother to feel the most energised… even on very little sleep!! 🤪 xx
I FEEL this. For me, motherhood has forced me to really focus and prioritize and with so much less time for myself there’s much more significance to what I spend that precious time on and the pull to approach work in a way that feels more aligned. I’m also so drawn to human design (emotional projector mama with a generator son and man gen daughter), but have yet to figure out how to integrate it into my business. But the desire and spark is there and I’m riding my wave on it and waiting for clarity. So we’ll see where it goes! ✨
Oh I love that you have found that refinement… it truly strips everything away that is not essential and forces that clarity I think. Not an easy journey but a gift for sure! Woah lots of energy for you to keep up with… I’m an MG with two daughters, a Manifestor and Projector. They teach me a lot about pace!!!! The application in business takes a little experimentation but then things start to land it can be utterly transformative! Xx
Couldn’t agree more. Motherhood is definitely the most challenging difficult rewarding and transformative thing I’ve ever done. The me before my kiddos were born feels like another person entirely, but it’s nice to sometimes discover pieces of her are still in there. And yes! My son and husband are both sacral generators and my daughter and I have emotional authority (she’s got 2 waves) so there is a LOT of energy and feelings in our home and it definitely can be a lot to keep up with. I can imagine manifestor and projector kiddos needing to pace themselves, and I find raising kiddos with different types than mine both challenging and fascinating. It’s so beautiful when HD helps me unlock something for my kiddos to help them find their flow. My son is so into making sacral sounds and it’s fun to watch my MG daughter bounce from activity to activity all day (though trying to set the expectation I can’t always keep up with them).
Good for you for figuring out how to integrate it into your business. I’m curious. Did you go through an HD reader training?
Agreed… most brutal and beautiful experience of my life so far!!!
Yes I’ve done a few trainings, level 1 & 2 with Jenna Zoe and then a deep dive one with Kyla from Hatha Astro. It really is in the readings with others though that I’ve learned the most about applying it. I feel like I’ve only just scratched the surface but I think it’s one of those things that I will forever be integrating and learning. Xx
Same here! And thank you for sharing. I imagine doing a reader training sometime in the future and am so excited to keep digging deeper and integrating the knowledge. In the meantime, it’s an endless exercise to apply it for myself and learn more about the designs in my family
Exactly that… so much we can do just within ourselves xxx
Loved reading this so much. I felt a lot of similar things in 2022 and 2023 and it’s always encouraging to be reminded that I’m not alone. So grateful that you’re loving the direction you’re headed in. Happy belated Mother’s Day!
Thank you Lydia. :) Are you still in Iceland? How's it going? I haven't been on instagram much, but remember seeing that you were there. My family was on a hike earlier this week because my toddler likes walking through the woods and I randomly thought about how cool it would be to see him walk on the various Icelandic landscapes. I haven't been there for what feels like so many years!
We're back and forth a bit right now, but headed back that way in a few weeks! It's such a good international trip for kiddos :)
I feel this deeply. Feeling pulled to change but not knowing exactly how to do it. Or you do know how to, but it feels so foreign your body can’t help but perceive it as “unsafe.” I’ve been enjoying seeing the integration with astrology in your work. I myself have been slow drip learning astrology for years now and somehow it always surprises me and feels exactly right at the same time.
YES. That perception of change feeling unsafe is so challenging for me. The last year has been the slowest and deepest transition within my business and it honestly still feels really scary. Wishing you all the best as you navigate the unknown as well. AND YAY for more people getting into astrology. My learning experience so far has been a slow trip turned into full on school, ha. I love it. :)
I’m so with you on this, riding my own wave of business vs. mamahood as you know and trying to find my own identity in the mix when there seems to be so little time for me. Daycare also hasn’t felt right for our family to this point, but also I fantasize even having 1 more day a week with time and space to focus on my own work. But at the same time, I have 1 year left until Iris is in school and then these days are gone, so I’m continuing to ride my wave through the fog and uncertainty. Not sure where it’s going, but it’s so nice to know I’m not alone and to see like-minded friends finding their own aligned way forward reminding me I can do the same. Thank you for sharing, love. ♥️
I love you and see you and hear you, always. :) If it doesn't feel right for Iris to be in childcare yet, there's probably a reason. I'm literally so excited to see how you evolve from here in perfect time! Here's me being astro nerdy as always, but you have so much transformational 8th house deep energy, the next phase is bound to happen simply because you are so open to it.
I love you and see you right back always, friend. Thank you for every nugget of astro nerdiness, since it definitely helps me feel a bit less like I’m fumbling in the fog through these years. I just listened to the HD reading I had 4+ years ago and they pointed out in true projector fashion that it would be so aligned for my work and value to spring from what I see instead of what I can do. Not sure what that will mean for design, and maybe it involves HD and homeopathy in some way but the idea of my job being less centered on heads down work time is an interesting one. I also have the gate of community so there’s gotta be something there and we’ll see how it all plays out! Definitely open to whatever unfolds but also wishing I had more of an idea of where it’s all leading. And so we surrender again and again and again 🤷🏼♀️✨🙏🏼
Thank you for sharing your story !
I’ve been struggling with a similar feeling for about a year, with inkling of not feeling ok about my work as a brand designer for a way longer now. It got to a point where being a freelance didn’t feel aligned anymore and I got a job in a company again.
I’m starting to circle around what looks like the beginning of something that excites me again, but it was a process of getting excited 80 or more times by tiny epiphanies, and I’m wondering if I should dive in it head first like I did the 80 first times.
Reading your story gave me hope and inspiration. Again thank you so much for sharing.
Celebrating you getting a job again because freelance didn't feel good. I'm sure there was a lot of grief (and relief?) that came with that. Also! Excited to hear more about where these tiny epiphanies take you. :) I'm similar, where I get inklings of change that creep up, before I even truly know where I'm going. It's like I'm standing on a stone in a river and can only see the next stone. One step at a time until you look back and see how far you've come. <3
Love this story & applaud your courageous choice. The future of business deeply understands & caters to the *individual*. You’re on the forefront of a movement. Congrats for taking the leap! 👏🏽👏🏽
"The future of business deeply understands & caters to the individual." YES YES YES. I know this deep down AND it was a good reminder to see this morning — thank you.